Living With Purpose
I have been facing so much inner turmoil lately because I have so many side-projects going on that I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and stressed out. This is particularly because I didn’t have direction — I didn’t know what I was doing, not really. I was functioning on a maybe. And that really sucks.
I was talking to my friend Farrah (check out our website here and YouTube channel here) about this and she asked me what was actually bothering me. It couldn’t just be the stress of having a lot going on. After a long conversation and much introspection, I’m trying to make a life change by changing my mindset, and most importantly, by making better decisions, decisions that are based on my purpose, on my WHY.
One of my favourite books of all time is the trilogy by Philp Pullman His Dark Materials. It’s a beautifully written fantasy which ties in incredibly to real-life and has some amazing lessons and questions about people, life and religion. It follows two children, Will and Lyra through their adventures and coming-of-age as the series of parallel worlds is discovered, explored and reveals a giant upheaval in the system of the universe.
It tore me apart. There are many heart-wrenching moments. The end and the lead-up to then ending have some of the worst. (I’m getting teary-eyed and feeling a tightness in my chest just remembering it).
Major spoiler alert (Don’t read the next paragraph if you haven’t read the books yet): One moment that still gives me chills when I think about it is when Will and Lyra must go back to their their own worlds for the greater good even though they’re incredibly in love. They come to the realization that they must build the Republic of Heaven where they are rather than trying to go elsewhere, even if it comes with the tragic experience of being apart.
I relate this to my desire to experience and travel the world and build myself, which is sometimes put into conflict with my desire to build what I have, where I am, in Mombasa, where there is a striking need for the development of the creative industry. (I understand that these don’t have to be separate from each other, of course not, but I’m trying to give myself focus right now).
Furthermore, I equate this struggle simultaneously with my ability to communicate and market what other people are doing, versus wanting to do the creative stuff and engagement myself — a balance which I’m working on.
With this, I’m deciding to follow a path for myself RIGHT NOW.
I’m going to work on building my Republic of Heaven where I AM.
I will wait for NO-ONE.
I will work on MYSELF. I will create content. I will hone my creative voice. (That’s what you should be doing too!)
I will empower creatives by working with them, inspiring them to create, sharing expertise and experience. I will connect people to each other, across borders and all other limitations.
I will MAKE SHIT HAPPEN.
I will meet people from a position of power. I am everything I need to be. I have value and FUCK anyone who thinks I don’t.
I GOT THIS.
I pledge to create content consistently for the next 30 days. Whatever it is: Writing, music, vlogging, something new — doesn’t matter. As long as it’s MINE and it makes me HAPPY. I’m going to sprint through the rest of this year into next and beyond.
I will embrace change and opportunities, but as long as they help me add to and accomplish the bigger vision I’ve set out in my heart and mind.
Move fast, break things, create new pathways.
Thanks to @FarrahStoner and Bilal Malik for the perspective and support!
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